the prawn (:

tiring day yesterday.

had zpn > 9 course dinner yummy.

lots of laughter, smiles and redness.

the food was not that bad. i liked the fish and the abalone. and i asked eelin to help me to peel the prawn hees (: and this eelin got bullied by everyone for eating too many peanuts! haha.

experienced two challenging moments. i really couldn't take the 45th anniversary one. i was really on the verge of tears. all our hard work is poured down the drain. how many times has this happened to us? this is really unfair. i need a hug right now. sigh.

i don't know what i can say to make you understand.

i guess you will never understand me.

i don't know how to explain everything to you and if i do i will take ages to explain it and i don't think you will want to hear it. i hope things will be better. i want the old you back. i really miss you a lot. it means everything to me but i don't know what it means to you. 459 still. xoxo.