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Monday, December 7, 2009 @ 4:21 PM spent the whole day at home reading gossip girl and watching boys over flowers and eating instant noodles. been lazing around lately. will be going to school tomorrow to hang up the sj banners then go watch new moon with my 3 twilight buddies. even though i should be happy that i'm going to be watching new moon but i don't feel the least happy. i can never be as happy as before. well, i'm going to be very busy in the next few days. i'll be preparing for camp. and i don't know why people are making life so hard for me. can't you guys just use your tiny little minds and tell me if you can't go. i know you don't read this blog anymore but yes sweetheart, i know things aren't the same anymore. i guess i should let time reveal everything. but i really never felt so alone before. i told you countless times that i won't be able to let go. i really hope you'll just understand what i am trying to say. i have never loved someone so much before. and you mean a lot to me. i still love you as much as before. but i don't know if its the other way round. i really want the old you back and i want to rewind back the time so everything will be alright and nothing like this would ever happen. i love you. i really want you back. if you ask me why i'm doing this its because i'm a girl. if sorry could cure everything, why would there still be laws, police and jail? saying sorry doesn't make everything better. and all i can say right now is that i never felt so disappointed and you really broke my heart.
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